Dreams
That last couple nights I have experienced some weird dreams….well actually, since I started taking Doryx for beautiful skin all my dreams have been much more vivid. Two of them however, have lightly slightly larger impressions on me then the others. On Saturday night, I dreamt about the girl I am currently involved with and my ex, the one I am still in love with. In the dream, my ex asked me back and I said no, I passed over her for this current like buddy. What is disturbing to me, is that in reality, I would go back to her in a second if she asked, because I still love her and I still believe that the breakup was all circumstantial (based on living 1200 miles apart). Also, whenever she does send me a text message saying something that shows she still cares, it generally results in tears.
The second dream, which took place last night, was a similar scenario, however this time, it was current like buddy and a girl I went on maybe three dates with when I moved to Seattle…this time, I picked the Seattle girl. Why this bothers me, is that I would never actually choose Seattle girl…I found her behavior very rude, and I don’t appreciate rudeness. There is a hierarchy here for people I would run to, and these dreams did not meet it.
1. Ex 2. Like Buddy 3. Seattle (and this is a very big stretch for 3, I would never actually consider her again).
Mostly, I don’t understand why my subconscious chose to illuminate my reality in this way when it obviously doesn’t meet the reality I believe to be the case….It makes me want to study dream psychology more intensely, because normally my subconscious and my reality are hand in hand like long time lovers.
