Sabotage
I seem to sabotage all the good things in my life, and by that I mean the intimate relationships I have. It doesn’t matter how long they last, I always end up doing something and freaking out on the person, which inevitably makes them disappear. I did it again this weekend, and I am so embarrassed by my actions. This continuous cycle needs to end, but I don’t know where to begin or how to have enough confidence in myself to not let my emotions get the best of me. I have been told it is wonderful that I say what I think and feel, and that I feel so much, but sometimes, I just wish those feelings didn’t drive every single one of my actions towards my intimate relationships. So where do I begin?
